13 years one day and 8hrs on, and each and everyday that has past passed, I have a had a little moment; a moment when I stop and remember Clare. Sometimes, I become complacent to my surroundings and it takes just a moments thought to realise that I pulled the other straw, and that I am the lucky one. She could have had my life.

Things happen day in day out, that I have to think, well that just doesnt matter in comparison, and sometimes I have to stop myself from saying something to someone.

And then I have to sit and tell myself off at times for doing the same thing, getting wound up by someone or something to the point of exhaustion, when I should just walk away and ignore it. Its difficult sometimes.

But its at this time each year, I have to reflect on how lucky I am to be here and to be able to have this opportunity to vent my feelings.

This shot was a pseudo HDR, but was really an awkward shot, not only in the shooting, but in the composition, and in the final edit. I think I like elements of the shot, but its not one I’m going to rave about. Lets just say whilst I enjoyed getting out with my camera at the weekend, it was slim pickings, before the light ran dry. And the sun was so low, every shot I tried to take, included myself in shadow form, it was that or shoot directly at the sun, damn that wide angle lens!!! ….. ho hum …. csj

• taken|26/10/2008
• camera|Canon EOS 5D
• lens|17mm – 40mm L
• focal length|17mm
• aperture|f/6.7
• shutter speed|1/60 sec
• shooting mode|Program
• exposure bias|0
• metering mode|pattern
• iso|125
• flash fired|No
• image quality|RAW
• raw converter|Photoshop CS3 + Lightroom
• cropped|3×2